SAHM

Stay at home mom...

should I or shouldn't I? (that was the question)

I have been going through trials this week.

A couple of sermons really spoke to my heart. I am not even sure how I started thinking about quitting my job and staying home full time. (Surely, it is the holy spirit guiding me. ) I have been praying for wisdom and guidance with this, as it not an easy decision. Many things to be considered, mostly financial.

I feel like I need to take control of my life, instead of my life controlling me. I guess it never bothered me before because I was living for the world. The rush rush of my everyday working mom life is bearing me down. I wake up DREADING going to work. Nothing has changed at work, I am the one that has changed. Since I have been saved, my priorities have shifted.

I was feeling unsure about letting go, so during my lunch hour today I read the bible for some direction. My bible has a handy reference guide, so I turned to the scriptures in the "looking for guidance" section. After reading a few, it was clear what I needed to do. Its amazing what putting your faith in God and reading the word can do. God is good.

I had already discussed my feelings with Johnny, and of course he said he would support me in whatever I decided.

.... and for even more confirmation, I get a phone call from my uncle today. He was calling to ask if I knew of any babysitters, since he wants to return to work. (he is raising his grandchild) A cowinky dink? I think not.

So thats where I am. I havent told my brother yet. Thats going to be tough.

I want to wake up in the morning ready for life and with a positive outlook. I want to spend the day with my amazing children. I want to be the one that serves them breakfast, the one that takes them to Tuesday morning puppet shows. I want to be the one to teach my daughter her how to write her name. I want my house to be in perfect order when my husband comes home. I want a healthy dinner on the table made with patience and love. I want clean socks in the sock drawers at all times.. I know, I know.. you get the point. :P

I know there will be many sacrifices... but they will be worth it. My treasure is my family, and I want to be the BEST for them.

I have a wonderful husband to count on (always have, but its more clear to me now) and I have Jesus.

God will provide.